I know school and homework and the early mornings are probably three worst things in the world but honesty, right now in my life, I have never felt so damn fine about myself and who I am. I don’t think school is that bad, I kinda enjoy it, I like being in a room and only knowing like 3 people in it, I like the feeling of individuallity and independence,i like the idea that im the only person doing my Combination of classes, it’s like I’ve got my own road to follow that no one else can drive on, and it’s always been like that but this year made me realise it.I’ve had so many like epiphanies and it’s great. And I have never been More active before, like I don’t think I have played the xbox in 3 weeks , i went for a jog today, I never go for jogs! I’m actually doing something to help benefit my wellbeing, and now I’m always feeling happy, I do get the shits every now and then but who doesn’t , but I no longer just get mad and be a jerk for no reason, I’m just great!
Yesterday my sister got some fluffy toy animal called a “chatimal” and it repeats anything you say and just changes the pitch of your voice and it so sick….im saying shit like “im going to eat your soul” and “7 days!” and its saying it in a really deep satanic voice and its so creepy and cool
Today when i walked into religion, i saw her and she saw me and we kinda looked at each other and she gave me the cutest/shy smile. It made my day…this is so pathetic because ive only talked to her once, but still
i have had probly the most fucked up awesome 24 hours of my life….it started with me going to mgees house for the night, we went and lurked medowie with his mates for a bit and one of them had a tazer and got me with it right on the ass it was fucked,then we went to some guys 18th but they only let in like mgees mates cody and jacob because they knew them and not us, so then me mgee and HIS MATE hayden shearer walked around for a bit before me and mgee caught up with cody and he got us in to the party but by the time we got there it had died down heaps so it was pretty shit,until MAT “THE MILKMAN” RYAN came to the party and offered to drive us home, so 8 of use crammed in to his shitty little ford lazer and we went off fucking flying around the streets of medowie at 120klm screaming out “120klm IN THE VELODROME!!!!” and doing handbrakes around corners and shit…then we went to bi lo and got out for a bit and mat did a shitty lil burnout before leaving us for a bit….but then he came back and we went for another fucking death ride around medowie and we did like huge skids cus mat didnt know where we were meant to go so i was just telling to go ” LEFT RIGHT LEFT LEFT RIGHT LEFT RIGHT RIGHT”…we unded up in dead ends and shit it was soo funny, we went passed cynthia gardiners house and yelled out that shes a slut and stuff.then we got out and walked a around and mat drove off, we walked for a bit then mat showed up in his car with swanny and shit in it and we were like lets go for another ride, but swanny was like “there isnt any room”….and i was like “dont worry we did it before” but he was like nah and he like grabbed my arm or something so i just grabbed him arm and like pushed it away into the car door which pissed him off, so he got out and tried to act tough and get in my face and shit and i just stood there waiting for him to start something but then he like grabbed me and wispered something in my ear and got in the car…then mat was about to drive away but mgee told me to open the boot before he drove off and i did like 5 times cus it kept going up and down then some guy got out of the car and pushed me and was like “stop being a smartass!” then cody grabbed him and he pushed cody and we stood there waiting for him to do something then he got in the car and they left, after that we went home, then the next morning we went to terrace so we could get driven by bronson to paintball cus we organised to go paintballig with stairzy and we ended up getting salvy to come too and it was sick,it was me brocky,stairzy,mgee,salvy and bronson all playing paintball together,there was this rule at the place where if you take your helmet off in any place in the arena where you play you get punished by firing squad and me salvy and mgee all took out helmets off so everyone got one free shot at us from 5 metres away with a legit fucking paintball gun…WHICH FUCKING SUCKED SO MUCH, i got hit in the chest twice in the same place so i got a bitchen scar to show the ladies along with about 10 others that i got just playing, i also got him on that bit on the end of your elbow that when you hit it it send like an electric shock up your arm and that hurt so damn much and it still hurts now like 7 hours later,everyone got so fucked up but it was the sickest time ever and were definitely going to do that again for sure!!!!!!!!!
So, theres this girl whos in like my religion and maths class, and for some reason, i am EXTREMELY attracted to her, theres something about her,i like stare at the back of her head for like most of the lesson cus she sits infront of me, shes got a fairly good tan, blonde hair, and i think she went to pius, when we had to make those straw building things on GTKYD i was in her group and i was so stoked and we talked like a bit but it wasnt a conversation, it was just talking if you know what i mean but she seemed pretty cool…. But i cant remember her name or anything wish sucks heaps bad. We make like eye contact and stuff and she doesnt seem to freaked out when i try and send a smile her way so hopefully im going to try and aspire to maybe talk to her. (or get her name for a start)
Every now and then I try to figure out who you are, I often have breakthroughs or realizations that make complete sence and could work but there’s always something else to Contradict that and it’s annoying but fascinating at the same time, it’s great. I’ll know you more than you know yourself